Hey! It is actually my first ever blog article which isn't a requirement for our academic class. I just want to share this story and I hope it makes sense for some who’s actually having a hard time with their relationship concerning their “Ex”.
I had a boyfriend.We became courtesans back on our sophomore days but it didn't take long and didn't end up in a happy ending like in the movies, fairy tales and pocket books. When we broke up, we completely don’t had a chance to text or call each other even to talk personally. We go separate ways and totally live our own business.
We graduated from same school when we were in high school. We are also block section then. At this instant, we knew each other eight years in totality. When we were in sophomore this college, Yes! You heard it right, we were also in sophomore years when we met, I was actually going to my sister upstairs at the Mall near our place and I saw him. I just don’t know what to say because he was completely different. He took up Marine Engineering and it sad for me that I don’t even know before or mind to ask him what his dream was. He approaches me and I don’t even notice him because it’s not the same physical him. He’s wearing eyeglasses; he became thin and had some pimple marks which are totally distant changed from our high school days. Anyways, we exchange lot of stories because it’s been so long since we last talk, we had a dinner at the McDonald’s with my sister;and we exchange numbers. We became friends again. But that’s it. We rarely text or call each other after that. I thought he’s just busy or whatever until he told me that he’s staying in the Academy without cell phone or any gadgets that will give inclination to them and only Friday is his time to use those when he reach home.
When he had chances, he texts or calls me. And I reply to him. Well, I don’t think there is something wrong with that. Until he told me that this girl who used to be his ‘crush’ when we were in high school is already his girlfriend. I am completely happy for him because I know that she really like her. Something in me so weird because, I thought that we can still fix what happened to our relationship back then. Yeah! Na-friendzoned ako! I just thought that our exchange of talk that time is a sign however, I was completely wrong. To tell you the truth, I get jealous. Of course, as the girl’s ego and pride, I didn't mind to tell him.I just told him, “Congrats!” Paano ba yan? Parang hindi tama na magkatext pa tayo or call baka magselos girlfriend mo” and that’s it, I keep distance so to avoid him and to respect his girl when jealousy attacks.
We cut communication until this one day, he texted me that his girl is asking for ‘cool off’ and he’s really sad about it. I did not pamper him as your mind thinks. I just told him to think twice and weigh things out. If it is for worth it then work on and save the relationship. But the relationship didn't come to its happy ending. It ended so soon and I am sad for him.
We turned out to be friends again. We exchange messages and calls when we have chances. And we became courtesans for the second time.I call him “Babab”(That’s what I loved to call him but absolutely not his real name. I don’t think it is necessary anyway or will distract my story). It wasn’t easy because we can communicate just Friday night and on Sunday, he needs to go back to Academy leaving his phone, and that’s it, no communication again for one week! Also, we don’t really see each other every day ‘coz I was also pursuing my course.
Babab and I were totally different. We don’t really click for a lot of things because maybe I was born Sagittarius and he's Scorpio? To tell you, I believe in the constellations of the zodiac having a description on your personality and what zodiac fits you. Oops sorry, if you’re not, I respect. In the first part of our relationship, I thought of breaking up because I don’t feel he is honest enough or I don’t see his humour and we always have a hard time to talk to each other because of his chosen course and I also stay in Manila to focus on mine as well. I leave to God my faith. If this doesn't work for the second time, maybe it’s not really meant to be. To tell you honestly, our relationship works and I don’t know at what part or when. Is it an answered prayer from above? Is it really meant to be after all? Will he be really destined for me? Oh! Sorry I think I became overstated with that. We adjust with the totally opposite attitude of each other. But of course, it wasn’t an easy thing. We have fights and arguments especially with our ex-boyfriend and girlfriend.
To tell you the truth, I am not easily get jealous especially if there is nothing to be jealous about. There’s this time and it was actually my uncle’s birthday. The party was good and everyone was happy except for me because it’s the last Saturday of me and Babab to be together. He’ll be leaving for his twelve months of training abroad. After the party, we decided to go to mall with my family to watch the last full show movie. When the movie is about to end, his phone beeps and there’s this number saying, “Kala ko ba tatawag ka?” I asked him who’s the sender was and he told me it’s his ex-girlfriend.
We always contend especially if it’s about our ex. I mean, even if they are just friends now, I am still jealous... I just thought of how happy they were or how they shared everything when they were together. I am scared that Babab will forget me and realized that I am not really for him or overlook everything we had started. Two days from now, he will leave me for his training and still doesn’t mind to tell me about everything. And then, there’s his ex-girlfriend texting him. It’s bothering me if he really have an idea to tell me or not to tell me that he texted his ex-girlfriend earlier to say “Goodbye” or “Hey, I am leaving, I will miss you” something like that. Sorry but I just don’t really see the point and I don’t think I am overreacting this time. I don’t talk to him until we left the movie house. I told him before to save this girl’s mobile number but he never did and I don’t see the point of her text message. Why will he need to call? Why not just text her? Is it a bad idea or a different dialectal if he’ll do that anyway?
I cried so hard that night. It’s our last Saturday together and I thought it’ll ended up perfectly. I feel really bad because he’s not telling me EVERYTHING. What more if he stayed for twelve months abroad and we just have a long distance relationship? Will he be brave enough to tell me about anything, whether it is a big thing or the smallest? All these things run in my mind that night.
Babab tried to call me but I refused to answer because my family might hear my shaky voice and will ask me what’s wrong. I don’t like it of course. I just text and told Babab how I feel and I think he get my point. He explained, we cried, we exchange sorry and we ended up not wanting to lose each other. We fix things that night. The next day he went to our house to pick me up for church. We spend the whole day together.
Monday, Babab left the country for his training. That was actually the saddest part of our love story. I miss Babab every day. When I feel stress and I am on my hardest time, I really wanted to be with him. To tell you honestly, there’s no single day that I thought of cheating, none at all. My mind set is to be with him and wait for him, just him until he comes back.
After ten months, Babab will see Philippines again. Yes! It’s for real. His training comes to its end and I will see him after ten months of dark and lonely nights! LOL. Early this afternoon, Babab and I got a chance to do video chat on Facebook when he is still in Japan airport.I told him that I cannot make it because I am completely busy. Then, what’s funny is that, his face immediately wrinkled, his nose gets big and he gets disappointed. He told me “Okay, bye”. I knew Babab completely. He wants me to be there as soon as he derives. But I just need to say and do that to surprise him. Of course I will be there! His dad and I went to airport to pick him up. I don’t know what to feel. I am totally excited, nervous and I feel like I’ll be sick. I don’t know. It’s Babab after all whom I will see after a few hours but I don’t know why I feel all these. Finally, their plane just landed and I will see Babab in a bit.
When he’s heading to our lorry, his dad and I rawhide in a car near ours. We saw Babab so sad and then we came out. I cannot explain exactly how Babab missed his dad. The first word he said was “Daddy!” He hugged him very tightly until he sees me beside his dad and he hugged me also. I feel how he missed his dad than me but I am not jealous. I am just happy that finally Babab is here with us again. Wholly and still Babab after all but this time, with a different physical thing. He is fat now and longer hair than mine, Joke. However, he is still cute and handsome in my eyes. When we are on our ride home, Babab hold onto telling stories more focus on his dad while he is holding my hands. I am teary because, I still have Babab and he still loves me and he came back.
Long distance isn’t really too hard for people who knows how to make ways to keep their relationship intact. We set aside our past especially our ex. We let each other feel that it’s between the two of us and no one can break us. Now, when we are talking about our ex, we make fun with it and no affection at all. And that’s it. That’s the best thing of our relationship.
No comments:
Post a Comment