There is good thing about hiding.

I always say “I’m okay” whenever someone asks me. Some say this is the commonly used quote to end the communication process; however, how can I really admit the fact that something’s wrong when no one bother to listen and to understand? Nonsensical.

When I reach college and feeling home sick, I practiced handling my own hitches such as: allowance, expenses, school projects, misunderstanding with my friends, etc. I have nothing to do but cry because I don’t want other people even my family feel sorry for me because I also feel the same way for myself.I still have one more year to finish my degree and I am not so sure if I can make it. I am tired asking for future - what will happen after I got my degree? Will I be really in the field of my chosen career? Will I be happy or find success in this world where I chose to get into? Hmm.. I’m so anxious about it.

I am busy impressing my family because I know they expect a lot from me. They’re hoping that someday I'll be in the field of Broadcasting where I am the one delivering the news. I am careworn that I’d frustrate them but of course I won’t. I know they want the best future for me where I can prove something for myself. I miss them whenever I feel down and under pressure, I hide the pain and I won’t dare to tell them. The pain is in me, it hurts inside but I need to become persevere because maybe something worthy awaits me; still, I’m okay and I’ll be okay because this the only way I can be dependent and prove something for my family and self.

Blogging: Expressing Thoughts Online

Blogging is something which I really don't practice. I only have Facebook and Yahoo as my social networking sites. Even in Facebook, I rarely post something in my status for I don’t think it is necessary so I find making blog site as something new.

I really don’t have any background on how to start on my blog site and on how to make it either. In addition, I really am not fluent in English so I must admit that I find it a big challenge as a Mass Communication student. At the moment I started browsing in the internet, I just go into the URL blogspot.com and tried making blog site on my own. It’s nerve-racking for me for I couldn't ask for anyone for help so I made up my mind that I can do this and I will do this! I just click whatever button I see in the monitor and finally I made it!At first, I find making blog only to comply with the requirement; however, I realized that it is really not that. Blogging is something that I should practice for it will help me to analyze things, to write with sense, to put stories into something that don’t have any value for some, and lastly, it can improve my English grammar.

Is this the end?

It's been a month since the rain starts to fall. For some it's a blessing but for most, it's another life's tragedy. Non-stop rains with heavy winds were brought by Habagat. What is this weather phenomenon? Is this the veracity of the end of the world? I really don’t have an idea.

Early this morning, I was awaked by the hefty raindrops. I prayed last night that this would soon end but it didn’t go in a way that I expect. Most of the areas including: Metro Manila, Las Piñas, Marikina and Cavite were submerged by flood, a disaster!

I thank God that I am safe and I pray for those who are not. Keeping hands intact and finding time to pray will help. Whatever we are experiencing right now is a test and this is just one of those that we should surpass.

I Miss Dad

A year ago, my dad died because of heart complications. I wasn’t there by his side during his last minute because we really don’t expect that that would be his last breath. I am a father’s pet and that’s the reason why my siblings hate me sometimes. I am not a picture-perfect daughter I know, but I must admit that I am not also a headache for him.

Dad is not sweet, he is not also showy but I feel him. I know deep in him he’s proud that we’re growing up the way he wanted us to be raised. Dad is not perfect. He is totally a disciplinarian, serious, artistic and all-around father and a husband for mom. He has vice and it’s drinking but no single while that he cheated on his partner.
I cried a lot back then for I know I could not have any or another father like him. No one could really replace him no matter how one will try.

Every time I am not fine, when I have problems on my own, when I have project to make, I miss him badly. I miss the way he is in his bitter-sweet way. Life goes on; he’s no longer here for us and maybe moving on will be the only favor I could give him.

Kamera Obskura: Cinemalaya 2012

Kamera Obskura which simply means “dark room” is an independent film entry for Cinemalaya 2012 made by Raymond Red. The film has the idea of a retro-futurist world where a prisoner (played by Pen Medina) locked away in a dark chamber for over two decades only sees the reality of the world outside through the small hole in his cell, which projects an image of the city in his wall, the phenomenon of “camera obscura”. He later immerses back into society by slowly climbing up the different social classes represented by the levels of different floors in a mysterious building, where corruption, deceit and betrayal seem to be at work at every level.

The film was far different from the usual independent film, camera shaking, outdoors shoot mostly shantytown, etc. where Raymond Red made an appearance of a vintage film produced sometime in the late 1920s to early 1930s in the Philippines.

It was actually my first time to watch an independent film that goes like this or that has a resemblance of the silent film era and I like it! The story was great and it’s full of twists. You really have to stay focus in order to appreciate and understand the message of the film. It was obvious throughout that the filmmaker used the new technology “Chroma” wherein you can control the assumed location you want to achieve and as if you’re actually in it. The sound effects coordinated with the scenes currently playing. The lights matched with the meaning of the film “dark room” so the shots didn’t need too much lights for emphasis. Overall, thumbs up for the film Kamera Obskura.

Online Resume

I've seen different resumes before owned by different individuals; however, I wasn’t able to make my own for I don’t think I need it at the moment. My professor in Online Writing requested us to make our own online resume using the knowledge gained during the multimedia seminar. At the very moment, I started asking myself: “What’s online resume anyway?” “How will I start customizing my passes in getting a job the same manner it was discussed during the session? Head ache!

When I started browsing the Internet, I’ve seen almost the same resume format but I discovered that it has three types: constructive, functional and combination of the two. I also search for ready made customized resume so I can use those as basis for my personalized resume. I made something with the combination of the two: constructive and functional wherein I included my skills on why they should hire me in the future and also I put my objective on why am I looking for job. Also, I made my resume online as something which will reflect with my personality: plain and simple. I just used three colours with my customized resume because I think it will just get too complicated if I put too much detail into it.

And here's my final Online Resume which I created after I've discovered that what I've first made was far different from the reality. Click HERE and see how I made it.